The stories it would tell. It would tell you about the many, many nights I hugged it as I sat in the bathroom floor, too weak to go back to the bedroom between rounds of vomiting. It would tell you all about my heartbreak and the number of tears it caught. It would tell you …
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This is going to be the weekend….
When I was a young teenager, I would call my biological father every week and ask him to come see me. He always had the same answer, “I’ll be there Saturday morning. See ya then.” Every Saturday morning I would wait at my aunt’s house for him to come. I would pass up spending the …
I miss you….
One small phrase, so many meanings. Have you ever thought about what that phrase really means to people when they say it? Have you ever even thought that it could have multiple meanings? We miss different things about different people. We miss their smile, we miss their laugh, we miss their hugs, we miss their …
Just a knot…
For most people when they notice a knot, they just brush it off. They may watch it for a week or even months before they decide to mention it. They’ll think of what it could be but not really let it get them wound up much. They are sure it will fine. It’s just a …
Cry
Holding it all in, Some days I feel like I’m living a lie, Making my head spin, Because all I want to do is cry. Cry into the arms of someone who cares, It’d be nice to just let it all out, But instead I look off in a blank stare. Feels like my heart …
To the friend I will always love:
You know how when your child was small and they’d keep trying to touch a hot surface? Every time you’d tell them no, they’d get their little heart broken because they didn’t understand why you were telling them no, just that you were. They’d keep trying to see if today was the day they could …
Things they won’t tell you
When you consider moving away from home you’ll get lots of advice. People will share their experience about moving away. Friends and family will give well wishes, promises of support, make commitments to stay in touch, friends will tell you nothing will change. However, there are things that people won’t tell you. They won’t tell …
Rambling thoughts
My mind is jumbled tonight. This week, this month, this year has been a mess, but especially this week. So many things are going through my head. Depression and anxiety are the hardest two things to explain to anyone who hasn’t experienced them. You wish people could understand, but you are glad they don’t because …
Small talk
I hate it. There is no substance to it. It’s uncomfortable and adds nothing to my life. What is the point of it? It feels forced and has no meaning or value. There are different kinds of small talk. When I ask my friend how she is or how her day was or how she …
Anxiety
Anxiety is a bitch. Excuse the language but it has to be said. It convinces you that no one wants you around. It convinces you that you aren’t good enough. That promotion you work your ass off, it tells you that you’ll never get it. It tells you that no one loves you. When your …
Thoughts from a Wandering Mind 